Since I was little, I wanted to have a job related to illustration and designing. So I went on to a high school specializing in art.
But I dropped out when I was a junior.
It was so bad that my teacher would grab the brush from me in the middle of drawing and start to fix my picture.
I started to doubt whether I was having fun drawing.
I wanted to become a creator who draws CD sleeves since I liked music. Even though I wanted to become a creator, I was worked at a clothing shop.
There, I met a lot of unique people, and our relationships still continuing to this day.
Then, I learned that drawing can be done in digital.
As I was studying about illustration….
I had a baby, alone.
The father of the baby told me not to have her because he still had things he wanted to do.
But I wanted to have this baby. I wanted to prove that you can do anything without sacrificing anyone as long as you have the will to do so. And so I gave it my all.
“I will not let myself lose to anything,” I kept on telling myself. I was drawing feeling like this at first.
I drew what I see from my women’s point of view in daily life.
Broken heart, jealously… negative feelings.
The girls might look cute but you don’t really understand inside of their mind. That is the theme.
Since last year, something inside me has changed significantly.
The happiness when people see my drawings and tell me that “it’s cute.”
The gratitude upon receiving another job offer from a same publisher.
Through these experiences, I became positive towards drawing.
There was the time when I would research and then go out in the world and market by myself.
Then I got a contact from a children’s book publisher.
My daughter has grown bigger and started to tell me that my drawings were cute.
I started to think that my drawings might be suited for little girls.
Recently, my daughter asked me what is my dream in the future.
I think I have reached the point where I can finally start feeling good about myself.
This is where the real fight begins.
Experiencing and knowing how difficult it is to giving a birth and raising a kid, I feel like I can accomplish anything.
Interviewed month: May, 2014
Even though she has gone through a lot of ups and downs, Ayana Nakamura-san speaks gently and embraces you with a slow tempo Kyoto accent.
I feel that her openness, softness, the strength inside her, each of these things have an effect on the girls inside her drawings.